It comes in all shapes and sizes. It's hidden in small incidents that trigger flashbacks. It grabs hold of you and doesn't seem to want to let go. It stymies any healthy living journey. It's the main tool Satan uses to take you out of the game of life. It's called fear.
Fear Leads to Destruction
I know all about fear. The evil one used it to keep me in line, headed on the path to total destruction. At 430 pounds that's exactly where I was destined.
I could lose weight pretty easily. The problem was I would put it back on plus more. I'm an educated person with a bachelor's and a master's degree. I felt I should have been able to figure out how to do this. Try as I might, I couldn't get a handle on it.
Fear gripped me when I passed the 300-pound mark. After losing 100 pounds, I once again celebrated with Mamaw's oatmeal cake and put back on the weight plus about 25 more pounds.
It was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back, meaning it was the last action in a long line of cumulative actions. I wanted to break this lose-gain roller coaster because I was afraid of the results of gaining even more weight.
It was this fear that drove me to decide to do "nothing". Everything I did seemed to backfire on me, so I decided doing nothing was better than failing. With this definition I continued to gain weight.
Fear is just false evidence appearing real. The evil one is good at making us believe the "evidence" is a solid reason to just give up and surrender to the fear. I didn't have a fear of gaining weight because in some way I felt the weight protected me from men like the one who molested me when I was 11.
For years I muddled through until my fears seemed to come true. What we dwell on, think about and turn over and over in our minds will come true whether that be fears or dreams. It's just one of the reasons we should guard our thoughts.
Fears Become Realities
When I reached 430 pounds and had to be hospitalized with congestive heart failure, a rude cardiac surgeon told me that I needed to lose at least 100 pounds and keep it off or I'd be dead in five years.
This jump-started my desire to find a solution. You can read all about how I began to be a loser in Sweet Grace: How I Lost 250 Pounds. Suffice it to say, I had to take a risky step of faith.
I had to overcome my fear of doing the wrong thing. For years I wouldn't even weigh when I went to the doctor's office. I didn't have a scale at home that went high enough to weigh me plus I just didn't want to know the truth.
I will admit that I was even afraid of the scale. I wanted to smash it to smithereens because surely it was against me. Getting over that fear was one of the first steps. I began to see the scale as a tool to help me determine if how I was eating and moving was helping me or not.
If the scale showed a weight gain that said to me that I needed to adjust something. If it showed a loss, I noted what I had done differently the day before or the day before that. I didn't let it intimidate me or rule my life. It's nothing more than a piece of machinery which gives me information I can use to help me on my journey.
Just Do It
I joined a weight loss group called "Just do it". Following this motto helped break my "do-nothing-and-no-harm-will-come-to-me" philosophy. I began doing something about my problem, taking small steps towards my goal.
I learned to take steps that would change my habits for good. I changed my mindset from dieting to creating lasting lifestyle changes. Each thing I incorporated I realized this is for the rest of my life, not just until I get to a goal weight. I'm cooperating with God to transform my entire life—body, soul and spirit.
I surrendered my ability or inability to do figure out how to do this weight loss journey. on His altar. I told Him I was weak and that I would do things His way. My watchword became what God told Paul, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness."1
When I allowed God to direct me on this journey, things began to change. There is so much more to my story, but the truth is nothing happened until I took a step towards changing my life from the inside out.2
Fear began to shatter when I came out of my self-imposed exile and submitted totally to God in this process.
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